Life Happens

Mood: 🎤🎼🎤 "Life can bring us through many changes
It's alright
Just dont give up it's going to be alright
People come and they go
It's just the way it goes
Everything is everything
It's alright!" - Ledisi

Life happens...but It's Okay!!! 

Life happens 

Relationships end 

People outgrow one another 

And some are no longer friends 

But it's okay 

Life happens 

People get married 

Start having babies 

Others land careers 

And some move away 

But it's okay 

Life happens 

You're a college graduate 

But she's a high school drop out 

You live in your fancy home and drive your nice cars 

And she just trying to figure out how to feed her child 

But it's okay 

Life happens 

You never struggle to make ends meet 

But this boy out all night slangin' in the streets 

You sit at the table with your family when it's time to eat 

But the kids in another home are praying that dad doesn't come home drunk so they won't get beat 

But it's okay 

Life happens 

You hide behind your fake smile 

The tears just keep flowing 

And you haven't been happy in awhile 

But you pick up the pieces because in your mind you're knowing 

It's okay 

Life happens 

No one person is the same 

And you never know a persons struggle 

So don't judge a book by its cover 

Because things and people do change 

But it's okay 

Life happens 

Who are you to judge 

You sin one way and they sin another 

You're no better than me and I than you

So instead of tearing you down 

I prefer we help each other 

It's okay 

Life happens 

We all make mistakes 

We live and we learn 

And keep reaching for the stars day after day 

Don't give up now you've came a long way 

And you too have realized that life really is okay!

Nothing in life is ever meant to stay the same! And that's okay! There's a time and season for everything. Life steady throws punches, but all you can do is block them and keep on going. And the ones that do knock you down, remember to brush yourself off and try again. Never stay down. And you never know what a person is going through so be careful how you treat others. Smile...it's contagious! You never know how it may brighten someone's day!

"Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game!"

Be blessed and Be encouraged. 

And of course I can't leave you hanging...today's self love...don't forget to remind yourself of something you love about you! 

I LOVE ❤️ my lips 👄. Lol 

I remember getting teased because they were big 

But I've accepted that they are apart of who I am!

Kisses 😘 

©2017. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.

Aha. You're An Adult

Today I had something totally different in mind to talk about but then life happened and since today is Friday (pay day for most) then I know a lot of you can relate or may have even experienced "life" too today!

If you started KLOUD's journey with me from day one, then I'm sure you remember poems like Broken and Surrender! Well, those were poems from a dark time in my life. Times when I was broke, unemployed, past due on bills, hungry, depressed and the list goes on. I would cry just about everyday and I was just all around lost and hurting.

But, now!!! Oh, but now I've since then changed! I can honestly recognize my growth from then until now! So, let's take a look 👀........

I just did my expenses for today's check and let's just say the remaining balance is not much! Lol
Omg 😲
I wanted to cry, but I told myself it's alright! I am able to have a car and car insurance another month, life insurance, and my baby can go to school next week...so, again it's okay. We can eat and have running water and I can put gas in my car and even if that's all I can do, that's enough!
So, It's okay! When life gets rough, I'll continue to hold my head up!
It's okay!!!!

As adults we experience times when we just can't! But, I've learned that it's better to have everything we need instead of everything we want! So, now I just do what I can and what I can't, I don't worry about.

I remember I use to worry and cry about everything, I was so depressed. I feel like I've grown and matured so much. If this was like 2 years ago. Hell even 1 year ago I would be at my desk crying right now!

But, Thank God for change.

I'm just grateful to have a job to even be getting a check that allows me to pay the bills that I do have. Isn't God good! I've realized you have to take the good with the bad and keep it moving. I could've easily said I was broke but honestly I say I'm rich because my bills are paid and I'm still here on earth another day!

As I continue this journey to happiness, I'll leave you with this...
I love ❤️ how I am learning to encourage myself and stay positive. Happy thoughts. No more stress. No more crying. I'm good because it's going to be alright!

Also, I challenge you to an activity leave a comment below with something you love about you or something you've learned or an area you've noticed your growth and change in. And then I ask that you share my post on fb and then tag at least one friend to share the same thing about themselves!

Happy Friday 😊😃

Love With Me

"Don't be the girl that needs a man, be the girl a man needs!"

As women we often times dream of what love would be for  us and to us, but we never stop to think about what type of love our men would want, need, and look forward to......

Love With Me.

Love with me could be the best decision of your life 

I plan to adore, cherish and protect your heart with all my might 

And when things go wrong I'll help make them right 

Because when my life was dark, God sent you as the light 

The light I needed to sleep peacefully through the night

All the men before you seemed to have snatched my heart from my body with a knife 

Then God gave me you my brave and strong knight 

Love with me could be a breath of fresh air and sunlight 

I'll be your masseuse and release the tension when you're feeling uptight 

And everyday you come home from work dinner will be ready to appease your appetite 

I know everyday our smiles won't shine bright 

Despite 

Our differences, we'll talk things through and return to good terms by the end of the night 

Because to ignore how the other feels and go to bed angry is impolite 

That's not the way God sees the behavior of husband of wife 

Love with me won't always be easy and like every couple we'll experience our share of fights 

But we'll stay and work it out and when times are hard we don't take flight 

The good outweighs the bad and we're too click tight 

To give up and later regret what we had in hindsight 

Our love will ignite fire like a campsite 

And our love will be for all to see like the daylight 

And at night we'll share our deepest secrets while cuddling looking at the stars and moonlight

And I'll always be there when you roll over to kiss me good night

Love with me could sometimes mean romantic meals by candlelight 

While you look at me like I'm the prettiest girl in the world because I'm beautiful in your eyesight 

I'll always be sure that compliments and appreciation gestures are something I always recite 

Because love with me will keep our hearts beating with delight

...but, until you completely love you, you can't completely love him. So, pray to God for peace within yourself and then fall in love with all of you, flaws and all. Then when God sends the man that is for you, you can experience the love like well, like Love With Me!

As I continue to focus on self-love and my journey to happiness, today I realized that...

I love my ability to parent. It has taught me patience. I never imagined being a mom and I absolutely never wanted kids. But, I have since then adjusted and I am making it work. I feel like I am pretty darn good at it too and no one can tell me or make me feel differently. I LOVE BEING A MOM!

(Don't forget to write down today what you love about YOU!)

©2017. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.

I Am Beautiful

"I am not beautiful like you...I am Beautiful like Me!"

So, today's blog is a little different. KLOUD has adopted what I will call Freestyle  Friday's. I will let you into my world, tell you my insecurities, reveal my fears, and express my feelings, thoughts and concerns. You will see that I am human, I face trials and my life is not all together. This is so I can connect more to my readers. Show my vulnerability. And I never know whose life I may help change.

If you read Wednesday's blog...then you know that I am going through a phase of self exploration. I have decided to choose me! I want to be genuinely happy 😊. I've decided that people, places, things, titles, etc will NOT define me! I pray to God daily for contentment in my circumstances and situations. I ask that He show me that it's okay to be myself, to let go and be free. And I pray that I have everlasting joy. I just want to be enough. I want for my life with me and Kaidy to be enough.

In this process, I started a daily regimen to tell myself what I love ❤️ most about being me! Who is Kiara and what do you love most about Kiara? I decided that I needed to start appreciating the little things that we take for granted. I needed to love and embrace my flaws!
We have the opportunity to fix what's broke and change what we can and the rest we don't worry about!!! No stressing! Some days I feel like I'm not enough or that I haven't accomplished enough and other days I'm happy with my life and where I am. I'm always in a constant battle of questioning what's next?! But, no more. I'm learning to live in the present. We have to be patient and take things day by day!

"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own." Matthew 6:34

From now on...we let go and we let God! 

I ask that each of you be happy with who you are. Love yourself...flaws and all. You are beautiful! You are enough! 

Write down things each day that you love about yourself! Things that may have once shamed you. Or embarrassed you. Take pride in being you. 

I'll start.... My  Journey to Happiness...

I LOVE MY GLASSES! 
Makes me feel sexy and sophisticated lol 

Have a fabulous, fantastic Friday! 

©2017. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.

I'm WORTHY!

"The woman who does not require validation from anyone is the most feared woman on the planet"
                                                                                                       -Mohadesa Najumi
I'm Worthy

From this day going forth I vow to love, cherish and focus on Kiara..me, myself and I!
The only thing that I'm concerned about dealing with is my book, my finances and my child.
I'm done being anybody's fool and everybody's go to,
Starting now what ever you want or need I can no longer do.
I want to mind my own business and stay in my own lane,
I think I'm putting me first for a change.
The only things I'm worried about are the ones that goes on in my household, and what everybody else has going on, in all honesty I don't care to know.
I'm always there for others during their time of need,
But no one ever stops to to see if I'm good or check on me.
I want to be so secure with my life and myself within,
That it doesn't bother me one way or another about a having a man or friends.
I can no longer focus and stress about what could've, would've, should've been,
Certain things are made to stay in the past and other things happen for a reason and the rest of life eventually comes to a dead end.
If it doesn't make me happy from this day going forward,
Then it's not something that I plan to explore.
 And I'm done listening to people broken promises and repeated lies,
Telling me what they think I want to hear  and letting me down before they even tried.
Because nothing or no one bothers me anymore,
I've learned to let things slide off my back and just let it go!
And with that being said from this day forward I vow to love, cherish, and focus on Kiara...I put me first,
Today and all days going forward I realize my worth!!!

I just want to be happy! I remember when everyone and everything bothered me. I was always angry and mad at the world and couldn't say why. I remember trying to be super woman thinking I could please everyone and still take care of me! I used to pour my all into friendships and relationships only to get the short end of the stick. Oh, BUT NOW! No more!!! I'm tired. I forgot about me! So, I decided now to choose me! And that's okay. If you ever feel the need to put you first, DO IT! And never let anyone make you feel bad about it! You deserve to be happy! You deserve to love you! I'm deciding to do what's best for me! 

©2017. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.

Daddy's Little Girl

FOR ALL THE DAUGHTERS WHO WISHED THEIR DAD LOVED THEM...💔

Daddy's Little Girl

I received a text recently that I read with a dubious expression
Wondering why all of a sudden he made such an emotional confession
"What the hell he want and where he come from?" was my first questions
Then I thought maybe God is teaching me a lesson

A lesson on forgiving and moving on
So that I could let go of the anger and bitterness for all the times this man did me wrong
For every time I was a little girl wondering why my mom and dad didn't share the same home
And for all the times I would reach out and he wouldn't come to the phone
The real reason he never matured to take care of his responsibility is still unknown
But, it's only so much you can do or say 28 years later, I'm grown

I never thought that this text would open up so many bad memories and past feelings
Revealing to me all the things, the hurt that I had been concealing
I never really got over him not being around I just was dealing
Dealing with the fact that this man never really showed me love while asking God for peace and healing
But it's sad that single parent homes are common but I never found my situation appealing
And I've never asked you for a thing but when I needed you, you took for ever just to put a fan in the ceiling

It's sad that the few times I did speak to this man we had an argument
All because he wanted to be a dad and tell me things that I felt he had no business
See you dont get the right to talk to me any kind of way, when you walked out you lost that privilege
And if you want me to respect you then you must give it
For so long I let my anger towards you put my heart and mind in a prison
Becoming mad at the world all because of your decision

See I didn't decide to be your child, God chose your for me
And guess what He stepped in and did everything you couldn't and was more than the man you'll ever be
Because I made it without you, out of high school and two college degrees
And I thank God daily that Kaidy doesn't have to feel what I felt and see what I see
Or experience life without her daddy

A daughter is often times the apple of his eye and every female wants to be daddy's little girl
Too bad I never got the chance to know and enjoy that in my world

"There's nothing worse than a man that can be everything and to everybody else...except a father to their own child!"

©2017. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.