Wednesday, May 24, 2017

Reminisce

▶️play the moments
⏸pause the memories
⏹stop the pain
⏪rewind the happiness

REMINISCE πŸ’­πŸ’­

There are certain things I'll never forget
Or rather a certain person that I'll always miss
See the moments, the places, memories and shared times
Will forever be vividly etched in my mind
The way we made each other feel, complete utter bliss
And for every time we shared a French kiss
And of course for the chemistry and the vibes that can't be dismissed
Oh how I sit and reminisce
See what we shared some people want get it
But I must admit
They didn't matter, it was to you I wanted to commit
And for you I was willing
Without you having to convince
To see how far our love could go, to see how we could coexist
To submit to this relationship and give you all of me
Because we were a team
You were my walking, living, breathing daydream
And it may sound extreme
But we boosted each other's confidence, built one another's self esteem
Had us acting outside of our character but every thing that was done was sincere
We couldn't get enough of each other's presence, I enjoyed having you near
We were in love, you told me you could feel it
The joy that overcame us every time our lips met
And for every touch of the mind body and soul that we couldn't resist
It's funny how conversations can bring up old feelings
Got me smiling and blushing about things I thought left after we called it quits
But I guess there really are certain things I'll never forget
Or rather a certain person that I'll always miss
Oh how I sit and reminisce

🎀"Am I dreaming
Pinch me to see if it's real
Cuz my mind can't decide." 🎢
-Xscape

We all have that one person that we sometimes miss. The one we hate that we let get away. Telling ourselves how we wish we would have done things differently, because now all we have are memories. We find ourselves daydreaming, thinking of them. Remembering all the times and moments you two shared. And they cross our mind more often than not, and it's okay even if memories are all you got. Sometimes the best moments are the ones that you cherish. The ones embedded in your mind. Because sometimes random memories can bring you happiness and make you smile no matter other situations in your life at the time. I've learned that some of the best conversations are the ones that start out with, "remember when..."

And today's self love ❤️
I love that I am maturing enough to admit my flaws and know when I'm wrong. I know my attitude is horrible but as I'm getting older, I'm learning to work on it. The first step in growing is admitting and acceptance and I've matured enough to admit my flaws and work on them accordingly! I have no problem apologizing when and if I am wrong.

©2017. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.

Friday, May 19, 2017

Celebrating Life

🎢"stand up tonight, take off, aye
Yeah, we celebrating life, the only way
It don't matter who you are or where you're from
If you been working hard give yourself a round of applause πŸ‘πŸΎ...
So, ladies put your best dress on, get your hair done
Do it real big, it's a celebration πŸŽ‰ " 🎢
-Ledisi

I love that song! It inspires me every time to just be proud of who I am. To know that I deserve to celebrate my life. To live free and enjoy life.
I mean, why not? Everyday isn't promised right?! Life is too short and every other phrase people often speak about living life.

Well, right now I'm one of those people, lol. Life is short and everyday isn't promised and you never know which breath will be your last; so, why not live it up! lol. You know, ...YOLO (you only live once). Lol. Do you! But, seriously I believe in doing what makes you happy 😊

I read a quote and shared it with my friends that said, "if it doesn't make you feel fabulous...don't do it, don't buy it, don't keep it!" And lord knows at this point in my life, I am fabulous! And I'm going to do and be just that...

I look in the mirror and who do I see,
I see a beautiful girl with flaws that will not define me,
I am kind and I am intelligent,
Far from perfect but very proud of my melanin.
I look in the mirror and who do I see,
I see a girl who's perfectly imperfect and that's all she needs to be!

Sometimes we have to take life for exactly what it is. Learn to live in the moment. To let go of all our worries, stress and fears and to just... Live. Laugh. Love. To be happy. To dress up with no where to go, to dance in the rain and sing in the shower. To just take a chance. And most importantly to just have fun. Enjoy your life while you're living, you only get one! So make the best of it...

So at this time I'm all for going to restaurants, seeing movies and shopping sprees!
Im building my confidence, you may catch me at an event reciting my poetry.
I guess that means I'm at a point where "I ain't worried bout nothing"
So if you not talking success, positivity, vacations, etc then your conversation is not up for discussion.

And as for me, Kaidy's first trip to sea world is all booked. She's going to be so excited! I love our mother daughter moments!
And tonight I'll be attending my first poetry event. Poetry vs. Hiphop and I am so excited. I took Ledisi's advice and got me an outfit and hair/makeup done. I'm celebrating me and she is going to be cute!!!! Yasss, because she is fabulous! And so are you!

Until next time...

I love my smile πŸ˜ƒ! I'm really focusing on smiling more and frowning less. It feels so good to just let go and be happy 😊 I remember people telling me all the time they didn't know I was so cool and sweet because I always looked so mean. Now people tell me I'm beautiful and Kaidy smile just like me!

©2017. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.

Sunday, May 14, 2017

Mother's Day

Mother's Day! πŸ’πŸŒ·πŸŒΊπŸŒΉπŸŒΈ

Although this one day does not truly justify all that you do
Today is the day that you are glorified for every day and everything you've pushed through
For ever tear you dried, wound you nursed and every last dollar you gave
You're appreciated, being a mom you've proved that women are brave
Because being a doctor, nurse, teacher, cook, housekeeper, driver and the list goes on is never easy
But you do it with style and grace and you never complain after every long night and early mornings you were sleepy
Many of times you cried, plenty of nights you wanted to give up
But, being a mom you don't get to quit, see you keep going, you give and do more than enough
You are strong, built ford tough!
So no this one day doesn't fully compensate for all 365 days a year that you work
But getting paid in laughs and smiles, hugs and kisses is always enough
On today and everyday, even if no one else tells you, you are a superwoman
So hold your head up, and never stop doing your best, your child needs you
I see every sacrifice and I know every struggle, I get it, but keep doing what you do
For every cheer you screamed at a field or event and trip to the emergency room
You're always selfless, you take pride in your role and being "Mommy" is your favorite costume
So on today and everyday you are enough, you are appreciated and your title never goes unnoticed, even if your child does now know how or what to say,
I'll say it proudly, "We LOVE YOU ❤️HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY😘!"

Today's self love ❤️ 
I  LOVE MY C-SECTION SCAR! It's a reminder of one of the best things in life. It shows my survival of childbirth. It reveals all the pain I endured to have pleasure in being Kaidy's mother. Happy Mother's Day to me! 

©2017. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.

Friday, May 12, 2017

I'm NOT Lonely (continued)

I'm NOT lonely! Continued...

Because of gender roles and what society has instilled as domestic norms, most women feel like it's their sole purpose to be a mom or a wife. And that's all good and understandable. All women, myself included, want to one day experience a fairy tale wedding and live happily ever happy, well...it doesn't always happen like that. And in the meantime, what do you do? You do you! Lol. And when there's no guy in the picture, who do you date? You date you! And instead of always thinking about dating and getting married and having kids, think about enjoying life. All the things you could do, see, experience, and enjoy before you're committed. Before it stops becoming all about you and shifts to all about your family!

So, no I'm not saying that dating is horrible or that relationships are the devil, all I am saying is that you shouldn't forget about you. You should enjoy your singleness and young adulthood.
You know how many moms wish they would have finished college before starting a family? I am a witness and speak from experience when I say that being a full time mom and student, oh and an employee is not easy.
You know how many women wish they would've learned a hobby (swimming, sewing, skating, yoga, etc) before starting a family? It's hard to get leisure time when you have to cook, clean, wash, attend dr. appointments, help with homework, run errands, sporting events, etc. for your family.
And let's not forget about the women who wish they would have taken more vacations with friends or family or even attended more social events when they were single. Why? Because when you have a family, girls night out, vacations, and social life becomes scarce and non existent for some due to personal life, finances and just not having the time.

I've shared with you all about my journey to happiness and my life becoming about me. Taking this time to fall in love with Kiara. And you should as well. I may be alone but I am not lonely. I have my happiness, a piece of mind, and my Kaidy! And I'm taking my on advice, I'm enrolling into grad school, I'm working on a third book (book one will be out this year...yayyyy 🎊), I'm looking into starting yoga, swimming lessons for Kaidy and hanging with my friends. A few vacations are on my list as well. Starting now, starting today, I'm embracing who I am. Being single or being in a relationship will not define me. First up...mother's day paint and brunch event. Love you mommy, happy Mother's Day! πŸ‘©πŸ½
And happy Mother's Day to every supermom reading this blog! πŸ’

I hope this inspires at least one of you to start a new journey. To get a degree you always wanted, to visited a place you always wanted to see, to start a club or group, to go out and have a drink, to maybe even explore a new hobby, or to just take a moment to breathe and say, "I am enough, I am beautiful, I am strong and I am me!"

Until next time....muah πŸ’‹shoutout to my sister and a few friends for recent inspiration!!!

Today's self love ❤️
I love my smile πŸ˜ƒ! I'm really focusing on smiling more and frowning less. It feels so good to just let go and be happy 😊 I remember people telling me all the time they didn't know I was so cool and sweet because I always looked so mean. Now people tell me I'm beautiful and Kaidy smile just like me! πŸ˜ƒ

©2017. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.

Wednesday, May 10, 2017

Dreams.


Follow your passion,
Follow your dreams,
But most of all 
Follow your heart. ❤️

DREAMS.

From now on I'm going to be tough and confident like the little engine that could
Strive for greatness and follow my dreams like I should
"You can be anything that you want to be," I hardly ever heard that as a child
But, I'm at the age where I can motivate myself, I still have time to turn my life around
Yes I've experienced hurt, loss, and even failed at a few things
Then I learned those are all apart of the process, that's what being successful brings
I told myself to "do what's best for you, to never give up, never stop believing,
Because no one else can do this for you, no one else can fulfill your dreams!"
If I want it, I have to set myself up to get it
To reach for my goals, to reach for the moon and the stars
Just like any other success story, "Kiara you are competent, you are strong, you are brilliant and your future is bright, all those things that's who and what you are!"
I've learned that I can do anything that I put my mind to
If I focus enough and work hard at it, I can achieve every goal I set out to do
See I'm in my own lane, I'm in this race to attain my own dreams
I'm running towards the finish line because I can see what lies ahead clearly
I have a vision, I have a passion so I've done some research and made a few calls
Even decided to enroll into graduate school after all
"By any means necessary," that's my new motto, do what I have to to get things done
Because I need this to work,
I need this for Kaidy, I need this for me,
So one by one, I'm chasing after all my dreams!

"Follow your dreams or you'll spend the rest of your life working for someone who did!"

My future, my career, my livelihood has been on my mind heavy lately. I'm finally starting to figure out what I want to do with my life. And one day I may wake up and realize it was the best or worse decision I've ever made; but, I won't know until I try! It's never to late to try. It's never to late to start again. It's never too late to go after your dreams. And it's never to late to be curious. To learn something. To dream big. To follow your instincts. So I say, go for it.

Remember that someday you want to "do what you love so that you'll always love what you do!"

And today's self love ❤️
I love my writing ability! I think it's amazing how I'm able to express my deepest thoughts, feelings, emotions through words! It has become a passion of mines! And one day may land me a career!

©2017. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.

Wednesday, May 3, 2017

I am NOT Lonely

Let's just say that I am embracing my singleness. No I don't need to be hooked up, no you don't need to find me a "bae," and no I don't mind being alone!

I am NOT lonely!!

"I can't believe you're single or we have to find you a man," I hear more often than not.
Like it's hard for people to believe I have standards and just any man won't fill that spot.
Because I'm alone doesn't mean I am lonely, I told myself to "never settle and never confuse lust for love," a few things my last relationships taught.
Then one day I came across a quote that said, "fall in love with a man that loves you a little more than you love him," and for me that was some great food for thought.
Because before, I often times felt in love by myself and when I decided to walk away, for me none of them fought.
And most of them were liars and cheaters and the ones who seemed to be prefect probably just didn't get caught.
Because I'm alone doesn't mean I'm lonely, I'm choosing to wait for the guy that finds me, who feels in his heart, body and soul that I'm the one without second thought.
The guy that will brag about me and tell everyone he knows he hit the jackpot.
A guy that's not afraid to express his feelings, go out on dates, laugh at my corny jokes, tell me I'm beautiful and what not.
I rather him be so in love with me that I'm the only woman with the ability to give him butterflies and turn his stomach in knots.
Because I'm alone doesn't mean I'm lonely, so I rather be by myself until a guy comes along and all of me, my wants, my needs, my desires are sought.
I don't want much, just to name a few, that he's stable, a great listener, faithful, honest, Godly, a provider, oh yea and hot!
Yes, I miss having someone to talk to, hang out with, and companionship, it often crosses my mind and invade my thoughts
But, for now, I'll love me and date me, so yes I'm single but I'm not lonely and I've learned that being alone is not that bad after all!!!

I've realized and learned that not everyone in a relationship/marriage is happy and everyone single is not miserable!

"I love myself and I deserve to be loved by whoever comes into my life. I refuse to settle for anything less than real love. If a person can't give me the love I need, I have to love myself enough to walk away. Lust is not good enough for me. It has to be real love. There are no substitutions for the real thing. Love me or leave me alone."
                             -tony gaskins jr.

Today's self love  ❤️

I love how I'm more open to constructive criticism. Sometimes people really do mean me more help than harm. And can give me great advice and lead me in the right direction. It's okay to hear both negative and positive feedback. It helps me to learn and grow.

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