Out of Sight

"When you are transitioning to a new season of life, the people and situations that no longer fit you will fade away!"

    -Mandy Hale

Out of Sight 

Things change, people grow apart, and time and seasons still continues with the daylight,
So best believe I don't care when relationships/friendships become out of sight,
Maturing, growing and moving on are all apart of life,
So I don't give a damn who don't like nor talk to me because I'm still going to sleep good every night,
I'm too old to be worried about another human being and what they have going on in their life,
And I damn sure don't have time to be picking arguments and fights,
I just want to mind my business, be the best mom I can be and catch a few flights,
All the while working towards a career and getting my finances right,
So see I'm not trying to spend time figuring out why somebody stop talking to me when it'll eventually come to the light,
And in the meantime I'll still speak and keep it moving, I'm always polite,
Hell I'm over here too busy writing books working on my copyright,
So I'm just trying to enjoy my time after the rain in the beautiful sunlight,
Things haven't always been great for me but in due time it'll all be right
And regardless of who's no longer around, I'm gone be alright.
So forget whoever has turned on or against me, I'm still gone be me, living my life and smiling with delight.
Best believe, I'm gone be alright!!!

I have no long story to tell but this is where I am in life, this is my attitude and this is how I feel. I remember I use to let things bother me. I use to worry about what people said or how they felt. I would try to figure out what I did or why they stopped talking to me. At one point, yes my attitude was horrible, but I still cared too much! But, now...I just don't give a damn. I'm doing me. Loving me and enjoying me. Shoutout to Kaidy...that's my best friend. 

©2017. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved. 

MOMMY

Mommy 

Hearing the word mommy makes my heart smile,
I love sharing my life, my love, my time with my child.
She is the best date that I have ever went out with,
From the movies, to eating ice cream, and even just watching cartoons, I enjoy all of it.
If I never experience love with a man again,
That's perfectly fine because my daughter has become my best friend.
With her I never have to guess, wonder or question how she feels, 
Her daily hugs, kisses, and telling me, "I love you mommy," lets me know it's real.
Of all the relationships that I've experienced and the titles I've held,
Our mommy-daughter bond and being her mommy is the most rewarding one yet.
I didn't know that being a mom would bring this much joy because I never wanted kids, 
But now I wouldn't trade her for the world and I plan to continue loving her from deep within.
I want her to always feel, experience, and see love as long as I'm alive, 
I will cherish, honor and protect her because in being a mom I take pride, 
And she is truly an amazing prize.
No matter where life take us,
I will always have an undying love for her.
No matter how far apart we may one day go,
I will ensure that the love we share is something she will always know.
No matter how many times she calls, needs or depends on me, 
I will be right there with no complaints or questions asked because I will always be her Mommy!

Kaidy is my love, my life, my world! She's my favorite girl! I want her to always know how much I love her! No matter the circumstances I will always be  there! If you have a child cherish them, you'll never get a another one quite the same. Each child is different and unique. Kids just want to be nurtured and loved. Let them know you care! And if your parents are around, be grateful. You only get one mom/dad, and every one isn't lucky to have that! 

"The love in our family flows strong and deep, leaving us memories to treasure and keep."

Happy Birthday 🎉 Kaidence Ja'Nae! Mommy loves you more than you'll ever know! #KaidyTurns3

©2017. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.

Kicking the Addiction

This is a poem I wrote a few months back, I'm sure some of you can relate! It's never easy to walk away. And whoever said that love wasn't a drug, well...they lied!
"The strongest drug that exists for a human being is another human being!"

Kicking the Addiction

Love is an addiction and some addictions are hard to kick, but you as a piece of my puzzle no longer fits.
You are like a bad habit that's hindering me, I feel locked inside my feelings trying to break free. Some days I don't know if I am coming or going but I do know that somewhere, some things went wrong.
I've never been one to quit but it's time to give it up, my heart is tired and I've had enough.
I can't change you into the man that I want and need you to be, you have to want what's best for you and me.
However, I can change what I allow and what I choose to do and I choose me and life without you. Walking away is never easy and I don't love you any less but if I want to progress I need to release the tension and stress.
There's no need for me to keep waiting around trying to make us work, what's the point in keep watering your dirt?!
Nothing good grows from tainted soil, and our foundation has become like milk that went spoil. You're too old to still be playing games, like when are you going to grow up and make a change. After awhile you won't be a good catch, you better slow down before you get yourself in situations you gone regret.
I've did all I could and it's understood, that what I want you don't and what I will you won't.
I'm tired of just being friends so let's just put this to an end.
This, whatever this is, before it even started was already over, but as of today all my love and heart just went into foreclosure.
 As much as I love you and I don't want this to be through, you're toxic and I can't keep doing this with you.
Since you're not ready, I'm done being a casualty and for my own peace and sanity, it's time to walk away while I can still leave happily with just a little of my dignity!

"Love is a drug..you can get high off of it, you can get addicted to it, and you can get hurt by it!"

©2017.Kiara Giles.All Rights Reserved.

She Trifling Too

She Trifling Too

Females quick to judge and talk about no good baby daddies that are not around 

But will never point out these so call mothers who motherly instincts and duties they still haven't quite found 

Hell half of them knew they didn't want a baby before they laid down 

But truth be told they were just trying to keep that man on lock down 

They have time for everything else except being a mom and teaching their kids manners, respect, and proper nouns 

Won't even take the kids outside to spend a day at the playground 

I'm pretty sure they can tell you all about their niggas whereabouts 

But got their kids home bound 

Sending them to their mom or grandmothers house 

And when it's time for some real responsibilities these mothers get ghost town 

Can't even do homework, attend school functions or even comb the baby hair 

So call mothers walking around in latest fashions but kids look run down 

It's sad because these kids did nothing to you 

From my point of view 

You had a plan to keep this guy and that plan failed through 

And instead of getting out your feelings, when it came to your kids you withdrew 

Hell get your ass up and push through 

Because at the end of the day, daddy around or not, mommy has to always come to that child's rescue 

And again we need to stop bashing these men for what they don't do 

When you have so called mothers who are trifling too! 


Whew, yea I said it! True enough not all women have it in them to be a mom. And true enough I do not know everybody's situation. But, if you are woman enough to keep that child, be woman enough to care for it or give it to someone who can. It's okay to need help, hell we all need help sometimes. I know everybody is not an over the top, "extra" mom like myself and some of my friends; but, my God some of yall I be like what the hell do you do? And yes, it is a such thing as a single dad, all dads are not deadbeats. Hell, you have some men that has been more of a parent than some of you so call mothers have ever been. I'm not saying that I am a perfect mom or the best nor that I even know everything, but from what I have experienced, kids just want love, affection and attention. Mom's they just want you to show up, to be there. Remember, the best moments spent with your child are the one's that money can't buy.

©2017. All Rights Reserved. Kiara Giles

I Wanted You

Sometimes, as women we just want you to put in as much effort to keep us as you did to get us. We want you to make it hard for us to walk away. We want you to realize what you have before it becomes what you had. Is that too much to ask???

I Wanted You...

I wanted to you to love me like you were afraid of one day losing me 

I thought you would put a lock on my heart and only you held the master key 

And when I told you it was best for us to call it quits you would disagree 

Because life without me made you sick to your stomach and left you feeling crappy 


I wanted you to confess your love and convince me to stay 

I thought you would open up to me and put all your feelings on display 

And you would tell me that you were ready to compromise and meet me halfway 

Because life without me was like trying to catch your breath with a clogged airway 


I wanted you to look me in my eyes and see the love I had for you 

I didn't think you would give up so easy and we would pull through 

And everything I wanted for us I thought you would want too 

Because our love and the love you had for me was tried and true 


I wanted you to at least give us a try 

I thought we had a connection and shared a chemistry that was hard to deny 

And even after the ups and downs it wouldn't feel right to just say good bye 

Because life without me would tear you apart leaving you empty with a void that only I could occupy 


I wanted you to give me everything that I gave you in return 

I thought you would see how I was hurting without you and be overtaken with concern 

And the more days we spent apart not talking, the more for me your heart would yearn 

Because life without me was a lesson too hard to face and impossible to learn 


I wanted you to want me the way I wanted you 

I thought when my heart shattered in pieces you would put it back together, you would be my glue 

And tell me that the decision to leave was one neither of us really wanted to do 

Because life without me is a bad case of heartache that you weren't trying to cut into 


I didn't want a perfect love I just wanted a love that didn't deceive 

And you would tell me in what we had you still believe 

Because life without me was a death you weren't ready to grieve 

I just wanted you to fight for me!


©2017. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.

Mood: Please Don't Go by Tank

I'm Sick of You Niggas!

Sick of Fuck You Niggas

I'm sick you niggas thinking you're God's gift to women
Sending me nude pics invading my vision
Like I give a damn about your penis and the games you're giving
Telling me what I want to hear without even listening
Listening to what I want and need and it's not Netflix and chilling
Trying to act like you're the perfect gentleman yet leaving your real agenda hidden
Knowing you just want what's between my legs from the very beginning

I'm sick of you niggas painting a invalid image
Thinking every time you say sorry all would be forgiven
Making me feel like if I give you a chance I made a great decision
But trust you don't really want to know how I feel or my honest opinion
Be man enough to say what's your real mission
But what you really want you're not getting because I'm not that giving

I'm sick of you new age boys, y'all be tripping
Don't know the first thing about being a man and how to treat women
Thinking just because you have a penis you're winning
The devil must've birth you himself you fucking demon
I'm too old to be playing games and believing the lie you're living
Because you're far from being the man I want and my love has a limit
I want to fall in love with my hero and not the villain

You're full of lies, games, and semen
But love honesty and trust is definitely missing
I'm over all the played out lines you're spitting
If this is what relationships have become then I give up, I'm quitting
Because I'll put I in the work but for you I'm not willing
Hell, I'm sick of all you fuck niggas!

Ladies, I'm sure you've met a few fuck niggas! Man, the dudes I've been meeting lately been on one. Excuse my language but this is how I'm feeling. Hell, 🖕🏽Love I'm tired of trying. But, no seriously let me be patient because I know there are some decent men left. This poem is not to bash all men but my God, some of you need to do better. Smh 

©2016. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved. 

LOVE TO ME IS......

Love to Me Is...

Love to me is loving without limits 

Loving without conditions 

Giving with no expectations 

Avoiding temptation 

And still caring when you are full of frustration 

Love to me goes beyond sexual relations

It's being supportive of the others aspirations 

Being apart of their inspiration 

Asking questions before making accusations 

Love to me consists of compromise and collaboration 

My love will be supportive and motivating 

I want love that's a great listener and outstanding communicator 

With endless, open and varied conversation

Love to me is taking all of each other's thoughts, feelings, and concerns into consideration 

It's signing up to be a lover, a friend and not an investigator 

Love to me is looking into each other's eyes with admiration 

Taking vacations with no particular destination 

Talking through and surviving the good and bad situations 

Going half on future generations 

Love to me is full of patience 

It's when your heart still beats for that person even after all the complications 

All the reasons we loved on yesterday should still apply every day 

Love to me is respecting boundaries and knowing your limitations 

It's laughs, smiles and celebrations 

And although we may have problems, we both should be happy by the end of the day 

Because my love doesn't come with an expiration 

I want a love that doesn't experience fluctuation

The kind that continuously gives me a tingling sensation

And still respects me when we're in two different locations 

Love to me is about exploration 

Gratification 

And appreciation 

The love I want and the love I give 

I just want that love to be very authentication

And not a pigment of my imagination 

Love to me should experience elevation 

And when it comes to the mind body and soul, love will be our stimulation 

Because love to me is loving without limits 

Loving without conditions!

This poem comes from the second book that I am working on, stay tuned for more poems like this one. This is a book about love from a woman’s perspective. Just what we picture love should or would be like once we fall happily in love. These poems reveal the thoughts of our inner hopes and dreams for our relationships. Just think about it…what is love to you? What does love mean to you? What type of love do you wish to give and receive? What has love done to you and for you? This book will take you through the great, the good, the bad and the ugly when it comes to being in love.

I hope you all have enjoyed KLOUD blog this year and look forward to continue reading them as much as I look forward to writing them. Your love and support has been great and to my loyal readers, you are greatly appreciated. My KLOUD Blog will be back soon. Merry Christmas and Happy Happy Holidays. 

©2016. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.