All I Wanted

It's the simple things in life we tend to forget!!! It's the little things that money can't buy that means the most!

All I Ever Wanted...

I never wanted to feel like I had to beg for attention,

All I ever wanted was a guy to show genuine interest and affection.

Guess my love wasn't good enough,

All I ever wanted was for a guy to stick around when loving me got rough.

I never wanted to be this weak minded chick,

Having to ask for the things I felt I should've been getting,

All I ever wanted was to meet a guy who wasn't scared of one day settling down and committing.

Seems like the things I say go unnoticed and I get no response,

But it only bothers me because you don't see anything wrong with your nonchalance.

All I ever wanted was to not be ignored,

Listening is free so communication is something I know you can afford,

I rather you tell me to just leave you alone instead of distancing yourself when with me you got bored,

Leaving my most intimate thoughts unexplored,

All I ever wanted was to be appreciated, cherished and adored.

I didn't think I would have had to work so hard to get you to see me,

But I can no longer spend my time trying to beg and plead,

I shouldn't have to spell out all the things I feel, like we're competing in a spelling bee,

And if you rather we part ways then I'll set you free,

All I ever wanted was for the guy to decide if with me is where his heart wanted to be.

It would be nice to tell me the things on your mind,

Instead of me wondering and questing because you left our relationship status undefined,

All I ever wanted was a guy who was willing to give just a little of his time.

I'm not picky, it's the simple things to me that matter most,

All I ever wanted was a love that was all mine or well at least something close!

Well ladies, I don't have a story to tell today. This is exactly what I was going through and exactly what I wanted. Men, take note. Never forget to simply be there. Ask about her day or what's on her mind. Never forget to do those things that you started off doing in the beginning. Never get content. Keep dating even after years of dating and marriage. 

And then I came across this...

Mood: At Least (The Little Things) by Kelly Price

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If A Man...

"Two things you'll never have to chase...true friends and true love!"


If A Man......

If a man wanted to be with you then he would

If he wanted to change for you then he could

If he wanted to love you he'll know a million reasons why he should.

If he wanted to talk to you then he would reach out

If you're the woman for him then he knows that in his heart without a doubt.

See if he wanted to spend time with you, dating you would come naturally

Showing you off and telling you how he felt would come easy

If he knew you were the one then being around you would put him at ease.

If a man wanted you to know what he thought of you he would tell you

You would never have to second guess your place in his world

Everybody in his life would know that you were his girl.

If this man wanted to spend the rest of his life with you then you would know

It wouldn't take years and years for him to propose.

He would wine and dine you like a man in love do

Send you flowers, plan trips, and randomly text out the blue.

See if you have to play games to get a man to see you or know your worth

Then maybe he's not the guy to share your time with here on earth.

When a man is ready to settle down he has the power to do so and not cheat

See when he's truly in love you'll be all the woman he needs

He wouldn't mess up where his heart truly wanted to be.

If a man wanted to love only you then you would feel it

He would reveal to you what lies within his spirit

He would show you just the man he could be and commit.

If a man was ready to be the man you needed and wanted him to be

He would admit everything in his heart, mind, body and soul to show you y'all reality

Satisfaction guaranteed.

Stop making excuses for what that man wouldn't or don't do

Maybe that man just didn't see himself with you.

See if a man wanted to be with you then he would

If a man wanted to change for you then he could

He would tell you a million reasons why he should.

I've been dumb before, young and naive. I've even questioned myself as a woman asking if it was me. Trying to figure out why I wasn't good enough. I've been in relationships and "situationships" that caused me to ask myself, "what I could have done better or what role did I play, how could I have changed to be the woman he wanted." But, as time goes on, I remind myself that maybe it wasn't me. Maybe he just didn't know who he was as a man or the things he wanted. Maybe I was too good for him and he wasn't ready to give me what I needed and what I deserve. At the end of the day, maybe I wasn't the woman for him and he wasn't the man for me. I do believe that if a man wanted to be with you, then he would show you his interest and pursue you.When a man wants you then you would be a priority and not an option. Ladies, myself included, we have to be patient. There's a man out there looking, praying and searching for us. A man willing to give us his all. And when the time is right, God will reveal that man to us.

See if a man wanted to be with you then he would

If a man wanted to change for you then he could

He would tell you a million reasons why he should.

©2016. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.

My Love Too Good

Mood: A Woman's Worth by Alicia Keys.

My Love too Good...


My love to good to be misused,

And abused,

My love to good to be given away freely,

To someone who doesn't need it,

Who doesn't appreciate it,

But, yet mistreat it.

My love too good to be played with,

By a no good ass boy who didn't deserve it.

My love to good to be taken for granted,

Because you didn't understand it.

My love to good to be put on the back burner,

Because you're not man enough for one woman.

My love to good for me to be here trying to make this work by myself,

While you're out doing you and big kicking it with someone else.

My love to good for a confused ass boy like you,

You had my love and didn't know what to do,

So I'm over it, fuck you!

I knew it was too good to be true.

My love too good for you not to give a damn about me,

I can't make you open your eyes to what you been too blind to see,

Because you have no desire to give me what I need,

Or be the man I wanted you to be.

My love to good to be ignored,

You're not going to keep acting like my love doesn't exist,

Because your ass ain't shit.

My love to good for you not to be coming home every night,

When I decided to give you a chance I should've thought twice,

Because you got me questioning my worth wondering how did this become my life.

My love to good to stoop down to your level,

When I gave you all of me you should've been more careful.

Careful not to fuck it up,

But, your bad you're shit out of luck.

My love to good to sit around and wait,

For man who couldn't realize what he had before it was too late.

My love to good to even have to explain myself,

I will not prove my worth to you or anyone else.

At the end of the day,

There's nothing left to say.

Because my love to good,

For a no good boy like you!

Ladies, never let a man make you feel like you are not worthy. I am here to tell you now that you are beautiful, you are pretty enough, you are good enough. Never lower your standards for a boy, because a man will work twice as hard to reach your level and not bring you down to his. Always respect yourself and a man will respect you.
Men, pay attention to the things your woman says she needs and wants. Never make her feel less than good enough. Never bring down her self esteem. Never forget to put her first. The worse feeling for a woman is to feel like she is in love by herself.
For you both, always be positive. Be supportive. Give compliments when you see fit or just because. Always be open to listen. Never be afraid to admit the things on your mind and your heart. If there's a problem, fix it.
Sometimes we forget the simple things. Keep doing the little things that you did in the beginning to get the person.

And as for me, none of my ex's knew my worth. So, I am single because I will not settle. I refuse to settle.
"I'M NOT A ONE IN A MILLION KIND OF GIRL, I AM A ONCE IN A LIFETIME KIND OF WOMAN."

©2016. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.

FREE

1 Peter 5:7, "Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you."

FREE

I just want to be free

Free from all the heartache and pain,

I don't want to be angry and bitter

I just want to authentically smile again.


I just want to be free 

Free from all the past oppression, 

I don't want to be mad all the time

I've realized every situation doesn't need a reaction.


I just want to be free 

Free from the hold hostility has over me,

I don't want to continue to be mean 

I just want to live my life in peace.


I just want to be free

I don't always mean to be rude,

I don't want to end up old and lonely

I just want to work on my attitude.


I just want to be free 

I promise I really do mean well,

I have a heart of gold 

But somewhere I fell under Satan's wrath spell.


I just want to be free 

I have to get well for my daughter, 

I don't want her to see the fury side of me 

She needs to remember all the amazingly pleasing things I've taught her.


I just want to be free 

I know I'm a good person and a great friend,

I'm don't want people to be afraid to be around me 

I'm choosing to put the wicked side of my personality to an end.


I just want to be free 

I don't like pushing those that love me away,

I'm tired on holding on to those that hurt me

I just need to take time to pray.


I just want to be free 

Lord, I ask that you help me,

Give me the things I need 

That'll allow me to break free,

Free from my unpleasant temper 

So me and those around me can be genuinely happy.

I just want to be free!

At some point in life you have to grow up. Maturity doesn't always come with age. But, as I've gotten older, I have learned that maturity comes with knowing, admitting and accepting your flaws. Maturity comes with knowing when it's okay to be quiet (every situation does not need a response). Maturity comes with knowing how to react to certain actions, meaning every action doesn't calls for a reaction out of you. See, I'm choosing to work on me. It is funny that everyone can tend to point out everyone else flaws and problems but their own. Me personally, I have my own issues. No time to worry about anyone else's. Most times the people with the least room to talk always has the most to say. But, I say that change starts with you. The only person that I am in competition with or trying to be better than is the one that is looking back at me when I look in the mirror. When I decided that I wanted to be genuinely happy, I decided to just let it all go. I know that my attitude is not the best and I am not always the nicest person, but I am owning it and I am willing to change it. There are things and people that has hurt me and I was holding on to that anger, still asking why and what if, but I forgive them and I am moving on. I am choosing to use my bitter to make myself better. The past will no longer hinder me. I'm making a pledge to change. At some point in life some things are no longer cute and other things don't really even matter anymore. At some point in life you have to grow up!

Job 17:9,"The righteous shall move onward and forward; those with pure hearts shall become stronger and stronger."

©2016. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.

Co-Parents

1 Peter 4:8, "Above everything, love one another earnestly, because love covers over many sins."

Co-Parents

Life as a mom is not the way I imagined it would be,

I always wanted to come home to a family.

But regardless of the situation I love my daughter just the same,

And the friendship we have as co-parents still remain.

At the end of the the day our main focus is her,

No matter what we have going on personally

As parents, the both of us are always there.

Our daughter has two loving parents in her life,

Although we're in two different households she still hears both of our voices every night.

At the end of the day our main objective is always to do what's in the best interest for the child,

We have to put our differences aside

And do what's right because no disagreement should go un-reconciled.

We ensure that she never sees anything between us that's not pleasing,

All she knows is that mommy and daddy are happy and that she's the reason.

As friends we're mature enough to never bash the other parent to the kid,

Kids should never have to choose sides and be put in grown folks business.

We share responsibility of childcare, doctor appointments, food, clothes and the list goes on,

I'm lucky to share a child with a man who knows that no woman should have to do it alone.

No one wakes up and decides that they want to be just a baby mom or dad,

But life happens and it's best to just take the good with the bad.

Yea we had a child outside of marriage and this is not what I planned when I was pregnant,

But we made the best of the situation and we've became great  co-parents.

So many times, parents are bitter because the relationship didn't work out between the two of them and they tend to take that anger and frustration out on the child. I am here to tell you today that no matter the situation you must always remain cordial for the child. And if you have a co-parent that can't do that then you just need to let it go. If one parent doesn't care then why waste your time caring. No one should spend too must time and energy trying to make a parent do what they were supposed to be doing. Use that energy to love your child, to spend time with your child and to show your child that they do have one parent that is available, active and involved. No we are not perfect and I myself didn't sign up to be a "baby mom" but although I'm single and I know that I am not a single parent. Trust I've cried and I've tried, just as any other woman, I wanted it to work. I vowed to never have kids unless I was married and even now I am not having anymore without a ring. However, I am happy that knowing my child has two loving parents. I've learn to put her needs and wants before mine. Parents always think of the child. If I can move on and be happy and be the best of friends with my co-parent then so can you. But if you can't, just let it go. Don't let your child see you bitter. It's easier said than done, trust I know. At the end of the day just continue to do what's best for you and do what is best for your child. I know every situation is not ideal like mine, but you just have to take it for what it is, it's only so many times that you can try. Some people are just not cut out to be parents. So, be thankful for those grandparents, aunts, uncles, etc. that are around to help, love and support you. Keep being the best parent that you can be. Keep your head up and remember do what you can and let God do what you can't.

Love Always,
A Co-Parent

©2016. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved

Motherhood

Motherhood

Being a mother I have experienced some of the best and worse days of my life, sometimes I feel like I've done everything wrong then other times I think that I'm doing everything right, battling early mornings and late nights, wishing I could escape the responsibility and take flight, to a far away place out of sight.
Often times I feel like I've failed myself and my kid, trying to figure out how to hold my frustration in, wondering why she won't stop crying and if it's something that I did, trying to deal as my patience wear thin.
I love the days that we spend time, our mother-daughter dates, ice cream socials and reading books, I'm a sucker for her gentle hugs, sweet kisses, and innocent looks. She's made me laugh and she's made me cry, I've been irritated by her behavior and enlightened by her smile like a butterfly.
From my pregnancy until now, being a mother has brought me much joy and much pain, some times I feel like I'm going to go insane.
Many times she'll cry and hell I'll cry too, trying to figure out what's wrong isn't easy and I don't always know what to do, I'll admit that some things about parenting I haven't the slightest clue.
Thinking that I didn't sign up for this, the crying and the falling out y'all could've missed me with, all it does it cause pain to my frontalis.
But then I think about all the reasons I love being a mom, the times that makes me happy, like baking, shopping and putting on lip balm, when she tells me how much she loves me and that I'm the bomb, when she grabs me palm to palm and says she feels safe in my arms.
See if I had to do some of the worse days all over again, I would just to get the moments that I hold her in my hands.
I could do without the bad but those moments help me appreciate the good, I love all the ups and downs, the sicknesses, and the tantrums that comes along with motherhood, I never thought I could be a mother but the last two years has shown me that I could, and if I had to listen to the crying everyday just to continue being her mommy then I would, and if being a mom means that I could experience some of the best days of my life and indescribable feelings and unconditional love then I think I found my livelihood.

If you read this and judged me, then one of us aren't being honest! And I believe I just told my truth. How I feel makes me human, it makes me a parent. If you're a parent I'm sure you've been here. Parenting is not always easy and I know how frustrating it can get. But, as parents we have to take the good with the bad, right?  Don't feel bad for wanting or needing mommy moments or daddy days ALONE! We deserve them, for all the late night, early mornings, being the teacher, the doctor, the nurse, the friend, and the list goes on.

Dear Lord,
As parents we come to you as humble as we know how. I ask on behalf of myself and all of the  parents reading this that you shower us with patience. Lord, mold us and shape us into the parents that you need and want us to be. Bless our households. Continue to watch over and protect our children from all hurt, harm and pain. We don't know why you chose us to be parents but we're glad that you did. Thank you for your continuous grace and mercy. I ask that you give us the strength needed to continue to juggle all the duties that comes along with parenthood.
In Jesus name,
Amen!

©2016. Kiara Giles. All Rights Reserved.

Our Ja'Nae

I remember when there was a time that I couldn't have imagined being a mom, now being a mom is the one thing that I couldn't imagine not being. So, today I dedicate my blog to my baby, my only daughter Kaidence. This is the poem I wrote when I was planning her christening. Enjoy...

I never imagined having a kid but the day I felt you move, my motherly instincts instantly kicked in, and although you're from my womb, you are your dads twin. 

I never knew I could love someone more than I love myself until the day that I had you, the feeling is so amazing that having you seems too good to be true. 

You've changed my life in ways that I can't explain, seeing you smile at me reassures me that you were definitely worth all the aches and pains. 

I can't believe I actually considered aborting you, each day you give me something to look forward to. 

I wouldn't dare trade you for the world, you are my sweetheart and your dad's favorite girl. 

I've learned to love you more than life itself, just to have and hold you, I'll give up all the fame, fortune, and wealth, for you are my life and I'll give my last breath. 

I promise to help you, protect you, support and mold you, to build a bond that'll always connect us two. 

No matter what life throws your way, I'll always have your back at the end of the day, good or bad, right or wrong, mommy will know just what to say to take all of life's pains away, long as I'm alive, everything will be okay, and through it all, mommy and daddy love's you, our Kaidence Ja'Nae!

Being a mom is not the easiest job in the world, but it is the best job title that I've held thus far. This little girl changed my life in more ways than one, a mother's love is definitely something that can't be explained. If I could do it all over I would have never considered not having her. I don't know anybody else's situation as a parent but our children only get one mom or dad, so make the best of it. Enjoy it and cherish the moments you get with them. I may not be or mean anything to anyone else, but to Kaidy I am the best mom ever, and I'll take that because if I am nothing else, I know that I am just that, a damn good mother. I thank God everyday for choosing me to be her mom, I don't know why He did, but I am glad that He did and I promise to be the best mom that I can be for her and to her. 

Psalms 127:3,"Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD, the fruit of the womb a reward."

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